Because I felt like I should
04.27.2005 at 12:50 a.m.

"I thought it would be hard for you when you became a better Christian, but you seemed to change easily. We told Clint that you're a good Christian now and he looked proud, I swear! He was like "That's awesome!". You never know.. maybe all of these weird punk guys want to go Christian too, but they think that they can't because they're in this "punk-band-scene", and it wouldn't be "cool"."

My friend Devan told me that tonight.
Clint is the drummer of the band that put me in their CD last year before God brought me back to reality. I haven't talked to any of the band since then, and I guess he was wondering where I disappeared to? Whatever it was, now he knows.

By "the punk guys" thing she meant the ones that we know. We talked a lot about music tonight, and I began telling her what God let me realize about it all. For instance, Fall Out Boy, a random lyric from them "Oh, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself". How is that supposed to make you feel good? She showed me something from Senses Fail, and it hit hard. That is what is wrong with the youth and young adults of this world. What you surround yourself with is what you become. My goal is for God to shine out of me and through me so much that, instead of my environment becoming my character, my character become my environment.

I've tried telling a few of my friends about that whole thing, but it's like they push me away and tell me I'm a weirdo-freak because they think that there is no way that could happen. Guess what? I thought the same thing, but it's true. If God thought that it was okay and good, he would of left it there, but he took it away. Obviously there is something wrong.

Gah, I don't know what else to say. I feel like I should keep writing, but I don't know what to put. Maybe there is someone who is going to read this and it'll affect them for the positive. I don't know, but if it does, know that God is with you, and He is calling you to Him. It's not a mistake, and it's not coincidently that you stumbled upon something like this, so please if this does reach you, contact me! There is something that will come out of this for a reason, and I have a really deep feeling about it, so please!

Yea, so before I freak anyone out, I'm going to leave. Goodnight all, God bless.

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"I am not going to apologize for speaking of the name of Jesus. If my friends have to become my enemies for me to be with my best friend, Jesus, then that's fine with me." - Rachel Joy Scott

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Me

Erika. 18. Female. Blonde. Hilary Duff/Brittany Murphy look-a-like. Christian. On fire for Jesus. Singer. Worshiper who dances. Short. Barlow Girl. Pro-Life Activist. Prayer Warrior. Christ Crusader. A bit of a perfectionist. Sometimes speaks in an English accent without realizing it. Not your average girl. Won't be labeled as average. Etc.

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God. Jesus. Church. Singing. Music. Dancing. Plumb.Jeremy Camp. 12 Stones. Kutless. Falling Up. Thousand Foot Krutch. FM Static. Company of a King. Starfield. Out of Eden. Newsboys. Rebecca St. James. Not By Sight. Lifehouse. Third Day. Casting Crowns. Avalon. Barlow Girl. Reliant K. Skillet. Hanson. Superchic[k]. Downhere. Forever Changed. The Julianna Theory. The Benjamin Gate. Seventh Day Slumber. Switchfoot. DC Talk. Watermark. Blindside. Hellogoodbye. Mae. Mourning September. Building 429. Disciple. Kids In The Way. Pillar. POD. Jason Upton. The Starting Line. Staple. Emery. Anberlin. Showbread. Krystal Meyers. Rachel Lampa. Ginny Owens. Sonicflood. Sarah Sadler. Karen Wheaton. ZOEGirl. Etc.

<3's

Organized religion. Judgemental people. Unneccessary drama and immaturity. Cursing. Immorality. A lot of rap. Etc.