Just to blab
04.21.2005 at 4:42 a.m.

God is doing some major testing this week. I'm really tempted to just yell at him, because I know he can take it, and I know that it's okay if I do it because he loves me all the same. He lets me go through it, so he knows he has to put up with all of moping around about it.

After I got into this huge argument with the devil, not even 30 minutes later my aunt calls and tells us she was in a bad car accident, and asked if we could come to where she was. Her car is totaled. Which means that I am without a car now, so she can use mine to go back and forth to work and wherever else.

I would just like to say that I am in no way stressing over this. It wasn't her fault, it was a paint company's and now they have to pay to replace everything. Since the car is not fixable, they'll have to get her a new one, and I'm looking at this as a blessing in disguise. I thank God that she is alive, she so easily could have been killed.

I'm kind of worried about my sister. Some stuff happened with her the other day. Please keep her in your prayers.

And through all of this I have a huge burden on me for some reason. One so big that it's hard to breathe. I've asked for forgiveness repeatidly thinking that that might be what it is, but it hasn't gone away. I don't know what it is. God, please remove this from me. It feels like it's choking me.

Wednesday (it's officially Thursday) made it 6 years since the Columbine tragedy. Remember to keep all of the victim's families in your prayers, and keep each other in your prayers so that nothing else like this ever happens again.

I don't know what else to say. I'm tired, and I have to re-install everything on the computer again because it died on me again. Ugh, goodnight.

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"I am not going to apologize for speaking of the name of Jesus. If my friends have to become my enemies for me to be with my best friend, Jesus, then that's fine with me." - Rachel Joy Scott

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Me

Erika. 18. Female. Blonde. Hilary Duff/Brittany Murphy look-a-like. Christian. On fire for Jesus. Singer. Worshiper who dances. Short. Barlow Girl. Pro-Life Activist. Prayer Warrior. Christ Crusader. A bit of a perfectionist. Sometimes speaks in an English accent without realizing it. Not your average girl. Won't be labeled as average. Etc.

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Organized religion. Judgemental people. Unneccessary drama and immaturity. Cursing. Immorality. A lot of rap. Etc.