• The life of a Pro-Life Activist. •

I'm at the point where I'd really like a punching bag. It seems like there is constantly reoccuring drama. I'd like to just scream my lungs out and get it over with.

Like for instance this weekend. There was a whole lot of un-neccessary drama that came out of no where, and seemed to kick in and stay around. Feelings were hurt and things were discussed, but I think everything is okay now? It is. Jesus is taking care of it.

I come home this morning and hear more bad news. They say that my uncle is very close to passing away. They've called hospise and stuff, but whatever. Just because the doctors say so, doesn't make it so. Just because everyone else is making funeral arrangements doesn't mean that I have to give up. One persons faith can change something. I'm not praying for him to die. I'm not praying for him to live. I'm praying for God's will to be done, and if it happens that he dies, then to give everyone peace about it. It's up to God, and even though he wants to go now doesn't mean he will. God has the final say.

Since I've written this entry God has turned my world up side down. He speaks to me very often now, so much it's kind of getting on my nerves.. lol

Sunday night Audra, Amber, and me went out to eat dinner at like 9 p.m, and then went to Walmart, hoping to see Andrew because we're worried about him. Anyway, we came back home with no luck of finding Andrew and were sitting down talking. None of us wanted to go to church the next morning and I was greatly considering just staying home, which is crazy because I love church. We began talking about sometimes we just wish that God would hurry up and come now so we wouldn't be having to go through everything. Then in the middle of the conversation that we were having God spoke up and told me "You say you want me to come, but you know that I'm only coming for a perfect bride. Perfection isn't going to happen if you don't do your part and stay home". At this point I'm just a little frustrated, so I literally looked up at the ceiling and go "Yeah, I know. Shut up.". Amber and Audra probably thought I was crazy, so I had to explain it to them. After that we all kind of laughed, knowing it was serious, but I joked about how God was rude and just loved to interrupt conversations.

Sunday morning comes and we're all expecting something great. We get to church and had a great Praise & Worship service. It was really nice. Sunday was just really nice all around.

Earlier I was reading the Bible about the FRUIT of the spirit and God gave me kind of like a vision, I guess you can say? It showed like a "ghosty" misty typish little guy inside of a big heart, and coming out of the heart were numerous vines and branches with little tags on each that said "Love", "Joy", "Peace", etc. It was quite cool.

Anyway, I'm going to go lay down. My eyes have been bothering me, and yeah. So bye for now!

Be blessed! :)

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"I am not going to apologize for speaking of the name of Jesus. If my friends have to become my enemies for me to be with my best friend, Jesus, then that's fine with me." - Rachel Joy Scott

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