trials & tribulations
09.22.2004 at 2:29 a.m.

what do you do when there`s someone around you that you really REALLY want to get away from? i`d really like to know.

this has to be one of the hardest test and trials i`ve ever gone through in my life. i`m surrounded by someone who does nothing but lie about everything and gets herself caught in all of them, and they all have horrible outcomes.

i`ve heard the term "what goes in must come out.". i`m tired of listening to this person`s lies and made up stories that never happened. i want to get away from it. i know i`m strong and i`m strong enough to overcome this demonic prescence on them, but i hate being around it. i`ve tried so hard to distance myself from this, and it seems like the harder i try and escape, the faster and stronger it keeps coming on.

i`ve tried everything. nice and mean - nothing works. it`s as if they don`t get the hint. they`re too busy living in their past & focusing on everything that has happened to them. everyone, and i mean everyone has tried everything to make them see that your past was who you were, not who you are, unless you constanlty dwell in that, and when satan reminds you of your past, remind him of his future. but they just don`t get it.

to anyone who may read this, please pray hard for this person. and not only this person, but everyone else around them and involved in every situation that is going on through and because of them. it`s so hard to love someone like this, and so easy to walk away and give up. and as much as i would like to, i know i can`t. Jesus said to love your neighbor as you love yourself; sick people are the ones in need of a doctor; not the well. so i have to help them.

i just pray that God gives me enough strength to get through this situation, and in the end make me a stronger person in him. and maybe that`s what this is. a test. a trial. something we all must go through. i know that if God brings me into it, he`ll bring me through it. there`s no doubt in my mind of that. i guess just being the human flesh that i am, i have doubts and worries, and of course the selfish`ness that asks "why me, Lord???".

but God has a reason for everything, a purpose for everything, he`s already done everything he`s going to do. i know in the name of Jesus that i`m through this situation. i`ve already overcame it, i just have to wait on it to come to an end.

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